I got raped by 3 ppl?

when i Was 6 my uncle started2rape me i didnt no what he was doin 2 me then when he stoped my bro began 2 rape me till i turned 15 he came2me n wanted 2 rape me but i fought him n he stoped n said "4give me"n i told him "i 4give u"but im actin infront of my parent n my sis that every thing is fine but im dyin inside,n then came my ant she raped me once n said"so sorry" i am broken n no1 knows what im goin through...when i put my head at the pillow i remember every thing n i start 2 cry without makin a sound...how can i be happy just 4 1day n not have2remember what they did2me