Is it rape or not ...................?

my ex boyfriend and i decided to meet one day and we decided to go to the park we were up in the jungle gym and he hit me not like a full on hit just like a tap and i said ow so he said sorry and pecked my lips he did it aagain and pecked my lips piles of time then he did it again and we went into a full on snog he then opened my belt and started to Fin ger me i just frooze up and couldnt speak he then made me do an-al i was really shocked and scared and couldnt speak i went home and cried myself to sleep did i give him the go ahead when i snogged him or was he wrong